The Journey Begins

Helloooooo! Welcome to my first blog! 

You would think having a wonderful husband and gorgeous 2 year old that life was perfect! It’s getting there but it really wasn’t.

My name is Natasha, I’m 32 and I’m a Mum who’s struggled with depression and anxiety since my daughter was around 3 weeks old. Not many knew or know that but I never spoke to anyone apart from my partner about it! I tried to open up to others in my family & my closest friends but all your mum tells you is ‘they’re busy’, ‘they won’t want to know’, ‘will they understand’? Times goes by and you dread to talk. Now is the time to do it.

Meet Phil and Isobella! The 2 people who have helped me through my crazy and emotional rollercoaster!


I wanted to write a blog to help other mummies who don’t know where to turn, feel like they’re alone and search to find other mummies who are or have been the same. If I can help just 1 person, I’ll feel so happy! I’m always open to questions which I struggled to ask others.

Depressed just means ‘Deep rest’ ❤️

I saw a comment the other day from Ariana Grande who quoted Jim Carrey and I absolutely loved it and I can’t help share it!

Jim Carrey once said that “Depression is your body saying ‘I don’t want to be this character anymore. I don’t want to hold up this avatar that you’ve created in the world. It’s too much for me’. You should think of the word ‘depressed’ as ‘deep rest’. Your body needs to be depressed. It needs rest from the character that you’ve been trying to play.”

This was something written by a Jeff Foster who Jim Carrey quoted and I can’t not love what they both say. It is all about exhaustion and being that front that everyone thinks you are!

So many people are surprised when you aren’t smiling or your chirpy self, especially with me and this all goes back to my blog about being a swan. I can hold one hell of a poker face and smile all day long, but go into another room and have a panic attack for 10 minutes then come back out acting ok! No one ever really sees the me who has constant panic attacks and feels weak with struggling with their mental health.

I think for those who can’t understand it, this can help, and also shows that mental illness really can be stronger than physical. You can use my mind to help power through physical pain but what is there to help mental?

I can relate to this so much and it’s not out there enough to give people a different overview of what depression can be. This may also help people who have depression or anxiety tell their family and friends just how they’re feeling.

Please share if you like!